Monday, July 22, 2013

In-Progress, but Not Finished Yet.

Usually you hear testimonies once something has culminated, but very seldom do you hear of testimonies that are in-progress. Well, this is exactly what this blog post in-progress testimony. I am sharing because I am extremely happy that God has been opening doors for me and clearly showing me my purpose for this temporary life. 

To give you some background, six years ago I graduated with my Bachelor of Science in Business Administration and since then I knew that graduate school, just like undergrad, was not an option. My only problem was deciding what to study.  I am a huge proponent of education, but my heart did not do somersaults when I thought about "mastering" in that field. I also thought about an MBA (Masters of Business Administration), but the same occurred with that-- my heart was still not content or at ease. A couple other tracks passed through my mind including health related paths (what in the world, Nissy?) and even law school passed through my mind. But nothing felt right. I liked the "idea" of law school and an MBA, but it still did not feel like "the one." I prayed for various years and finally it felt like I had a "Say Yes to The Dress" moment-- I knew within my heart that a Masters of Public Administration (MPA) would be my "soul mate."

Friends, I'm telling you, God's voice was extremely clear and loud! Throughout the whole exploratory phase (6 years), I felt God whispering "Pssst, Niss...what about public service (MPA)??" in my ear but I kept subconsciously ignoring it. Here I am six years later, 10 credits down and many to go, but on my way to obtaining my Masters of Public Administration (MPA)! I am working full-time, studying full-time, and I'm a full-time wife/daughter/friend/church leader, but yet God is helping me in tremendous ways. Please don't think I'm bragging with what I'm about to say, but I am saying this to motivate someone out there that does not think they can do it...but in my first graduate school session, I was taking 7 credits, and God granted me with a 4.0 GPA! When I first saw my grades, I cried because it has already been quite the journey, but like God has promised in the Bible, with HIM, NOTHING is impossible! We just have to believe. 

Wait, my in-progress testimony has more to it. So, to backtrack a little more, during the same time I was applying to graduate school, I thought about what non-academic related activities I can be a part of to enhance my educational experience and to propel me to my future goals and God put an amazing opportunity before me. To make a long story short, I have been nominated, confirmed and appointed by the Montgomery County (Maryland) Council to become part of the Committee on Hate and Violence! It was a long process and included an intimating interview, but I told God, "Hey God, if you want me to do this, please do your thing." I even went so far to decline a board member position earlier this year because deep in my heart I knew God wanted me to serve my community on a different level. I was so daring with me believing I was going to be appointed that a couple months ago I put all of the meetings in my calendar because I believed. Look, I did not believe in MYSELF, but I believed that God lead me to my calling/purpose (finalizing my decision about my MPA and starting on the process of obtaining my degree) and that this was just a glimpse of a bigger picture. I am extremely excited about serving my community in an area that is very near and dear to my heart-- fighting hate and violence. Please pray for me as I work with other individuals to counsel the Montgomery County Council about these delicate issues. 

Photo of the official letter! Eeek! Thank you God!
Quick commercial break: I would like to thank my support system [God, husband, family, friends and mentors] for believing in me and always praying for me. I cannot repay you for all of the love, support and prayers, but know that I do not take our relationship for all. I love you. 

My friend, if you are trying to find or confirm your purpose, please do NOT give up. Keep looking UP to God for guidance because He sees your heart and knows you want to live your purpose in unimaginable ways. Look at me, it took me six years to come to this realization/confirmation, so a delay is not a "I forgot about you or I do not care about" from God. He is crafting your future right now as you read this. He is putting all of the pieces (small and large) together. Take some time to listen to His "still small voice" and get ready to live out loud! 

Or maybe, you are already living your "purpose..." That's great! Congratulations! But you know what? God is still working on you too! Believe it. There is more to be done, there are more things to accomplish and more goals to meet! Keep moving forward and keep living your God given purpose! 

Wherever you may be on your journey, there is a song I would like you to hear. By the way, parts of the song are about the singer's personal experience, but the parts that get to me are these words:

There is hope, for me yet, 
Because God won't forget, 
All the plans HE's made for me
I have to wait and see, 
HE's not finished with me yet, 
HE's not finished with me yet

Still wonderin' why I'm here. 

Still wrestling with my fear
But oh... HE's up to something, 
And the farther out I go, 
I've seen enough to know 
That I'm not here for nothin'...
He's up to somethin'.

 God's NOT finished with you or me yet. I'm praying for your dreams and life purpose. Please keep me in prayer as well.

And oh yeah, stay tuned for more about my on-going testimony. I just have a feeling that there will be many parts to this long story (to yours too)! Let's believe it! Blessings!